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人的一生從呱呱墜地開始，長大後會變成怎樣，誰也說不準。平凡人往往有不平凡的一面 …。 “What would become of me?” One could only wait to be surprised, FP writer Wai-leung Lai writes.

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人的一生從呱呱墜地開始，長大後會變成怎樣，誰也說不準。平凡人往往有不平凡的一面，當遇到一個值得驕傲的，你可以跟自己說：「我真幸運！」 — 黎偉亮 Whatever will be, will be? That is a familiar answer to a child who asks, “What would become of me?” One could only wait to be surprised, FP writer Wai-leung Lai writes.

**feature image: Linda Lai 主題攝影黎肖嫻

事緣二十五年前的一次朋友聚會。

年輕的媽媽給我看了一張相片，是她的第一個孩子。相中主角是個一歲大的女嬰，獨自坐在公園欄杆的石躉上，面對鏡頭咧嘴而笑，四肢像初發的蓮藕節短小渾圓，紅紅臉蛋上的眼睛，因笑容瞇成一線，整個人白白胖胖，說不出的可愛。也許是緣分，我當下提出了與女孩結為誼親的要求。及後也沒有甚麼特別儀式，祇是相約女孩的一大群家人親戚吃了一頓晚飯，由我作東，就此落實。

那年代，朋儕間很喜歡因應年齡差距，以「契媽」、「契女」、「契哥」等相稱，通常都是鬧著玩十分「兒嬉」，我郤有自己的盤算：靜靜看著她成長，盡量不打擾她的生活，她遇到困難我會義不容辭，最嚴重的….. 撫養她成人。幸好，盤算歸盤算，我的顧慮從來沒有成為事實。兩年後，年輕媽媽為小女孩添了一個弟弟，一家四口過著平淡幸福的生活。

$\"\"$ 屋邨長大的小女孩是個懂事的人。上小學了，一家人由大埔遷移到元朗，要面對跨區上學的難題，不料小小年紀的她已能領著弟弟長途跋涉，返學放學風雨無阻，從來沒出過甚麼亂子。上中學了，入了心儀的學校，成績不太好也不太差，從來沒有學壞，也沒做過任何令家人擔心的事。畢業了，就著興趣報讀了護士訓練課程，考取了執業認可証明，成為了白衣天使。路途不算崎嶇，像大多數人，求學、工作、娛樂、談戀愛…. 尋尋覓覓，為自己的未來默默籌謀。

見面的時間不算多，但每年總有兩三次聚會，都是新年團拜或慶生之類。二零二零年春，「運動」期間，女孩的爸爸告訴我，每逢不用醫院當值的日子，她都會揹著鼓漲的背囊和一把雨傘往街裡跑，柔柔弱弱的人總是不理危險，秉持著專業抱負，到衝突前線做著自己能力所及的事。「那些雨傘，一把也沒能帶回家…. 」女孩爸爸淡淡道來，我腦海浮現無數螢幕播放過的畫面，心裡說不出的悽楚，相對無言。二零年夏，在聚會中和她閒話家常，一臉疲憊的她談到社會的狀況，言語間滿是憤怒和無助，一整年的奔波和挫折，年輕的心想是受盡了煎熬，然而沉靜的聲線和眉宇之間卻透露了心聲：「就算我這樣卑微的人，也有不可輕易拱手相讓的東西！」疾風勁草，可以彎曲卻不易折斷，瘦小的身軀內，藏著了高貴而堅壯的靈魂。

這一代人生活無憂，卻無端陷入堅守公義緊抱良知和接受馴化苟存過活的掙扎中。

生活還是要過的。二零二一年九月，動盪和瘟疫中的戀情開花結果，多年前那個相中娃娃已長大成人，以二十七歲之齡成為人婦，建立了自己的家庭。逸東酒店的婚宴，見証了她人生的一個段落、一個小高峰，也是新一頁的開始。

從一張白紙，寫成一個個完滿的章節。憑著自己的努力，小娃娃做到了。

那一年的事，她沒有再提起。我想，那遺憾已成為她心中一個不易結痂的傷口，希望那遺憾，也成為她心中的一股力量。

沅彤，生命盡是磨難，縱使含著金鑰匙出生，也得經歷重重波折。年幼時望時光快快消逝，成為大人，年長了又埋怨光陰荏苒時日無多，生老病死四苦如常，說到生存的意義，在醫院深切治療部當值的你，想必比一般人有更深的體會。

人生道路總是匍匐而行，沿途留下串串足印，斑駁的，凌亂的，筆直的….. 到某一天回望時，確認做過自己應做的事，認識過值得認識的人，肯定自己在世上切切實實的生活過，擁抱滿滿回憶，已不枉人生一場。每個人都有自己的志向，但這世界總有你沒法介入的角落，也總有你無力實現的事情，很多時會感覺有志難伸淡泊卑微，內心一片荒涼，然而平凡人有平凡人的福氣，年青的生命總帶著無限可能，就姑且把最珍惜的價值埋藏心中，淡然面對一切，堂堂正正的走下去。

身墮黑暗仍可盼望光明，崇高的東西愈被掩蓋，愈能彰顯它的偉岸神聖。沉默也是一種力量，它會隨時日變得強大，令心志更加堅毅，擁有它，每個新一天都可以是一次重生。

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無憂無慮
無慾無求
無不良嗜好
無特殊技能
浸淫俗世經年
此刻，只想沖「好咖啡」。

No worries, no anxieties
Not much to desire or to pursue
Nor is there fixation of any sorts
And no special skills to show
Having immersed for years in this world of banality...
At this very moment, all I want is to brew a cup of good coffee...

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無憂無慮
無慾無求
無不良嗜好
無特殊技能
浸淫俗世經年
此刻，只想沖「好咖啡」。

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